I’ve been waiting for a long time. The reason I’m not giving up on the process of falling in lust/love is because I thought it would never happen to me again after I experienced it for a few months at the age of 23…and then it did at the age of 26/27 ish. I mean I was totally going to live without the positive feelings and thoughts with my daughter’s dad when I was involved with him. I logically chose to go without until I felt emotions again. I don’t want to logically choose to go without in a relationship. Hence, while I’m still single. I don’t want to be single but I also don’t want to be numb within a relationship.